Friday, April 18, 2014

Explanations

Hello there world.

Long time, no blogging. 

And I was going to start this post by apologizing for that, but then I decided that I shouldn't 
have to. 

You see, in our English class the other day we read Charles Bukowski's So You Want to be a Writer. In it he says:

"If it doesn't come bursting out of you
in spite of everything,
don't do it.
unless it comes unasked out of your
heart and mind and your mouth
and your gut,
don't do it.
if you have to sit for hours
staring at your computer screen
or hunched over your
typewriter
searching for words.
don't do it."

I loved that, so relevant. It applies to to everything in life; if it isn't your passion, is it really worth doing? As the end of senior year inches closer, it seems that question is what everyone is thinking about. 

Anyways, back to how it relates to the blog. There are some days, like today, that I want to write and feel like I have something to say. But recently, I haven't had the time or desire to sit down and write. And there's no point trying to force it.  By living and experiencing  life, there isn't always time to recap it. From dance performances, spirit week, college visits, and mother daughter fashion show, these last few weeks have been full of excitement and moments that will soon become fond memories of our senior year. 

So that's my explanation and semi-apology for the lack of blogging. And now that spring break is finally upon us (I'm writing this in my cousin's New York City apartment!), perhaps I'll have more to share. 

Happy Easter weekend everyone!

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Checking In

Oh...well hi there. Long time no see.

I could list a bunch of excuses for why I haven't been blogging consistently lately...
But I don't really have any other than the fact that I just haven't had anything to say.

I've put "Blog Post" on my To Do list almost everyday for the past month, and everyday it ends up being one of the last things left before I cross it out in frustration.
Because at no point throughout the course of the day did I have anything to say to the world.
Every thought that is currently bouncing around my head is either too personal or too vague to merit a post.
So hence...silence.

Maybe I'll be inspired to write again soon, maybe I won't.
Hopefully it'll happen eventually.


Sunday, March 2, 2014

Baking Baking Baking

I love to bake. I love starting with a clean kitchen and a line-up of fresh ingredients, and ending with a tantalizing aroma emanating from the oven. I'll even go as far to say that I love the process of baking more than eating my creations! And, of course, I love taking pictures of the finished products...just to tempt you ;)

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Aren't these little muffin/cupcake "tins" adorable?

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Blueberry lemon bread
I'm a sucker for a good bread - preferably one that is perfect both with a cup of almond milk chai and as an after-dinner treat.
And, boy, does this one fit the bill. Ahh it's the perfect combination of sweet and tangy.

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Mocha cupcakes with espresso icing...because anything with coffee flavors is a yes from me.
This is the first time I've decided to try making cupcakes, mostly because I don't like baking from a mix, and cupcakes from scratch take a little bit more effort than cookies.
But these turned out so well that cupcakes are definitely going to be happening again soon.

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My spontaneous baking spree turned into a pseudo-cake because my sister had some people over for her friend's birthday.
Bonus: there were hungry people to devour them before I ate too many myself!

Have a wonderful Sunday everyone :)


Friday, February 14, 2014

Valentine's Day

Yesterday, in another attempt to procrastinate homework, I found myself turning back the clock to a post from this time last year. February 14, 2013.

And as I read that post, I realized something that caused me a great deal of joy: some things just don't change. I still love Valentine's Day <3

As a second semester senior, it feels like all anyone wants is change. The change to being independent, the change of atmosphere, and even the possibility of changing as a person. And there is no denying that my perspective on some things has changed since last Valentine's Day - mostly because of the natural course of growing up.

Yet as I eye-rolled at my early blogger self, I couldn't help but to smile at the aspects of myself that I truly don't think will change.

I will forever be the girl who sings too loudly in public.
I will always be the girl who finds happiness in the most random, small things.
I will never stop being the girl who becomes overly sentimental about practically everything.
And I will keep trying to make Valentine's Day special for the people I love.






While I melted, dipped, and sprinkled, I began to feel a tiny bit of childlike excitement. It makes me so happy that I'll be able to give my friends their treats tomorrow, and the idea of finding little chocolates in my locker throughout the day literally makes me giddy. Sometimes the most seemingly trivial things can truly brighten someone's day. So today I hope that everyone, single or in a relationship, finds something small to make the day special. 

Happy Valentine's Day <3

Thursday, February 13, 2014

Life Lately

Well hello there.
It's been a few days.
I didn't think I had much to say/any pictures to share...and then I realized I never shared any of my senior pictures taken by the amazing Leah Brady in November!
And who am I kidding...I always having something to say ;)

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Now that the Ellie show is over... 
Life has actually been normal for over a month now (*knock on wood*) - no random dramas etc.
And it doesn't hurt that my college applications are finally done. 
I've actually been enjoying my life. And it's fabulous.

Some things I have been enjoying....

These songs - a little taste of my incredibly random taste in music:
Skeleton Key by Margot & the Nuclear So and So's on Grooveshark
Two Black Cadillacs by Carrie Underwood on Grooveshark
Preacher by OneRepublic on Grooveshark
I Come Apart (Feat. Florence Welch) (Bonus Track) by A$AP Rocky on Grooveshark
There's Your Trouble by Dixie Chicks on Grooveshark

There's a good chance that one of these songs is playing at any given moment in my life.
Music is a must. All the time.

One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel García Márquez:
I've always been a book worm. When I was a little girl you could always find me with my nose in a book, and recently I've had more time to read for pleasure. Loving it. 
And this book...wow. Márquez's genius is palpable in every word. 
He makes every insane thing that happens to the Buendía family over several generations seem somehow normal.
Genius genius genius. 

SNOW.
I don't care how cold it gets or how much snow we have...I will always always love winter weather.
As excited as I am for the events that this spring will bring, I'm not quite ready for the snow to melt...the cold is just too perfect.

Dirty Almond Milk Chai
Espresso + almond milk + chai.
The perfect mid-afternoon pick me up.

Power Smoothies
I've been super motivated to workout whenever I can lately...partially because I perfected my post-workout smoothie recipe and I'm obsessed.
Berries + Greek yogurt + Almond milk + Superfood powder + Peanut butter + Cocoa powder.
It's such a perfect flavor combination, a perfect mix of nutritious and delicious.
Ugh my mouth is watering just thinking about it <3
Obsessed.

The Olympics.
They make me incredibly patriotic and competitive.
USA USA USA USA USA USA.
The Fox Sports page with the medal count is always open on my phone. No shame.
Sports I've never heard of before become ridiculous interesting if there's an American competing.
I even like the overly sentimental commercials.
What can I say, I love a good competition - the bigger the stage the better.
USA USA USA USA USA USA.

Just over three months until graduation. 
It's insane. And slightly scary. But mostly exciting.

And on that note, I'm going to end this post of randomness.
Have a wonderful President's Day weekend! 

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Someone to Celebrate

Friday night, we celebrated my mom's birthday.

In return for everything she does for us every day, we wanted to give her the kind of night we knew she would enjoy: dinner at Bravo's (her and I share a love of Italian food and carbs <3) and gifts tailored to her obsessions (lots of Downton related things, of course).




Mom's birthday dinner gave me an excuse to do something I hadn't done in a while…wear a dress. After a week of being sick, getting out of the house with my family AND not looking like the Black Plague had taken over me was a fabulous feeling <3




As we enjoyed each other's company and filled ourselves with delicious food, I couldn't help think about how absolutely amazing my mom is. I've written about role models before (in fact, this entire post was about just that), but I've never written about the inspiration my mom is and will always be. 

She manages to do everything. And by everything I mean everything. In the house, she completes every task, from cleaning to making appointments to groceries. While just doing that is enough to keep anyone busy, on top of it all she runs her own private practice and has started a nonprofit organization for underprivileged individuals in Pakistan. She has found a way to be a successful career woman without losing any part of the role she wanted to play as our mom. 

If that isn't the definition of Superwoman, then I don't know what it. 


My grandmother always tells me that "A woman should be able to do everything", and I see it in my mom. So while I have a number of role models, my mom is undoubtedly the woman I look to for support, inspiration, and guidance. Because, somehow, she managed to get through residency with two kids, started and is maintaining her own practice, and has raised 3 kids who have never been neglected a day in their lives….she must have done something right. 


If I can achieve half as much as my mom has, I think I will have done okay. 

Monday, February 3, 2014

The State of my Life

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I just noticed that the color scheme of my room matches the color scheme of this blog...weird.

The state of my room often reflects the state of my life:
Too messy = chaos. too busy too put away my laundry etc.
Too clean = there's something stressful on my mind so I distract myself by cleaning everything.
Combination (some messy, some clean) = just right. perfect balance.

Right now, my room is a beautiful combination.
Just like my life.
I'm finally finding balance.
Not trying to fit anybody else's mold.
It's amazing how being extracted from a situation makes you realize how much it was changing you.
This has been true of me in multiple ways over the past few weeks.
School stuff, personal stuff, social stuff.
There were reasons I was a mess for most of last semester, and I'm fixing those reasons.
Slowly but surely, I'm becoming more like "me" than I've ever been before.
And I kind of love it.

Happy Monday everyone!



P.S. Sorry not sorry for the multitude of personal reflections over the past few weeks...they're probably not the most entertaining things to read, but they're helpful for me.
A way of sorting through my thoughts, making sense of my life.
So there's my non-apology for using this blog sort of as a journal.
I do have some pretty pictures/artsy things to share in the coming weeks...so the "Ellie's feelings show" won't go on forever.
But hey - it's my blog and I'll do what I want ;)